Interrails?

Well, news flash!
A friend has invited me
Ummm...Next year I suppose
To join her on a interrail
OMG! It would be sooooooooo cool!
*Dreamy mood*

Anyways, I've considered

Some websites on interrails :

+ Juventude.pt
(I didn't find much on this website...)

+ CP -- Interrails - Info

AND more info on stuff of CP Interrails
More like ... what to bring along and such.
Which is ALWAYS useful and welcome.

+ CP -- Interrails - What to take

+ Another Interrail website

...I find them rather interesting
But I don't think I am ready for any adventure for now
Maybe next year (2012 owwhh).
This year I am focusing on my job then
If I do save money and have conditions for it
I'm going to nl. Probably Amsterdam.

Helping out someone

I've been thinking about this a long it
It actually when I think TOO hard
It kinda makes me angry.
...I do trip and fall often.
Rainy weather now and then
The heels? Or the slippery floor?
Or is it me? Whatever.

Let's say I almost fell from all the stairs in the subway
They are around 10, maybe more than that...
Luckily (according to circunstances)
I slipped and fell from 4 steps.
I hurt my leg slightly along.
It got better in the afternoon.

Again it is NOT my point the fact that I fell
My point is about the ammount of people
That were behind me and in front of me
And NO ONE (yes none of them) said anything
Or has done anything.

I "condemn" other atitudes like...
Whenever someone has an accident
Or whenever there is a fight

People gather around in a circle or a little crowd
And spread rumors, comments ect. regarding it
But when someone asks for witnesses
They all vanish.

Come on, is that hard to help people out??
Whether they are young or old
Or just in trouble or hurt.
...Are people THAT selfish?

Do people just mind their own business?
Maybe both , maybe only one.
I'm not only speaking of my experience
But on others too.

Self Injury - Cover Scars?

I'ld like to give my opinion on the matter.
Although I will work further
On the Social and Society section/page
Because I do like to give my opinion[s] on subjects
And I kinda enjoy being updated on stuff.

This one...
As I previously said *or not*
Since 2008 and late 2009
And parts of 2010...
I was a self injurer (or as most call, a cutter)
Although there are other ways of s.h.

According to this...
That happened I tried to cover the cuts up

By wearing these :
p.s.: Most images are online
All the rights belong to their owners.

- ...Multiple



Then with few of these too...



- Never had or wore these...
(Animal or mostly known as silly bands)
Although I know several teens use them nowadays
And were or are a "trend"
They were never attractive to me or anything.



This one is interesting...
It's made with pins and beads.
Then something to put them together



There is this video on a red bracelet
Made of those for self harm awareness.
When I have the time AND when I find the video
I shall post it here. Along with a tutorial
If I find it as well.

Note : It belongs to its rightful owners
NOT me. I am only sharing.

- Rarely these two...
(Which are both rubber bracellets)





And I wore this one...

- Wristband.
They cover the wrist only as the name says.
*I will post the image when I get home*

- Pandora Bracelets.
I absolutely am fascinated by these
They are soo pretty
But I do not know if they are expensive
OR not.





Note :
As an alternative...
...You can make your own jewelry.
Good luck ! :D

As for more on covering up...

- Armwarmers
Some go for this option
Whether for fashion/own style,
Casually or for covering up their cuts or scars
Some can be purchased at stores
Others make them out of socks *true*
If they do have the skill for it.





(It varies according to your country)
But most likely you can purchase it
At stores like claires, hot topic,...
Depending on the style.

Alternative style?
Most likely on online, local stores
Hot Topic and Claires.

Others styles?
Try out known stores...
For example Forever 21, Accesorize,
Pimkie, Biju Briggite, Zara, BSK...
OR even online.

- Gloves
There are a lot of gloves around!
Which can be...

- Gloves w/ fingers
These are pretty casual.
And they can cover for short periods of time
The hands and just a bit of the wrist.



- Fingerless gloves








- Lace Gloves





p.s. I loved this one! OMG :o



- Fishnet gloves







- Knitted gloves / armwarmers
You can either buy them already
OR make them yourself.
Depending on your patience, skills and/or money.







- Others...

Make up?
I NEVER personally done this but on some videos
Some people cover their scars
By using foundations or concealers
Around the already scar

To hide/cover it up
I don't think that has a very effective result
Plus it is make up anyways...

Sleeves / Legs ?
You can consider wearing sleeves around the winter/autumn time
Well BEFORE summer and the heat actually starts
Otherwise not only people might find it odd
But you might have some hard times
So it is adviced to wear armwarmers
And such as I pointed out above.

As for the legs it is a troubled story
In case you're a boy in the meantime you can consider
Wearing jeans and few times shorts;

But if you are a girl...
You can either use jeans
Or choose between :

Collants OR leggings...
They are good options too.
As for the leggings there are some that kinda
Imitate jeans and aren't THAT warm
So they are wearable.

At the pool OR beach
You can try for a while to wear a *pareo.

Self Injury - Cover Scars?

I'ld like to give my opinion on the matter.
Although I will work further
On the Social and Society section/page
Because I do like to give my opinion[s] on subjects
And I kinda enjoy being updated on stuff.

This one...
As I previously said *or not*
Since 2008 and late 2009
And parts of 2010...
I was a self injurer (or as most call, a cutter)
Although there are other ways of s.h.

According to this...
That happened I tried to cover the cuts up

By wearing these :
p.s.: Most images are online
All the rights belong to their owners.

- ...Multiple



Then with few of these too...



- Never had or wore these...
(Animal or mostly known as silly bands)
Although I know several teens use them nowadays
And were or are a "trend"
They were never attractive to me or anything.



This one is interesting...
It's made with pins and beads.
Then something to put them together



There is this video on a red bracelet
Made of those for self harm awareness.
When I have the time AND when I find the video
I shall post it here. Along with a tutorial
If I find it as well.

Note : It belongs to its rightful owners
NOT me. I am only sharing.

- Rarely these two...
(Which are both rubber bracellets)





And I wore this one...

- Wristband.
They cover the wrist only as the name says.
*I will post the image when I get home*

- Pandora Bracelets.
I absolutely am fascinated by these
They are soo pretty
But I do not know if they are expensive
OR not.





Note :
As an alternative...
...You can make your own jewelry.
Good luck ! :D

As for more on covering up...

- Armwarmers
Some go for this option
Whether for fashion/own style,
Casually or for covering up their cuts or scars
Some can be purchased at stores
Others make them out of socks *true*
If they do have the skill for it.





(It varies according to your country)
But most likely you can purchase it
At stores like claires, hot topic,...
Depending on the style.

Alternative style?
Most likely on online, local stores
Hot Topic and Claires.

Others styles?
Try out known stores...
For example Forever 21, Accesorize,
Pimkie, Biju Briggite, Zara, BSK...
OR even online.

- Gloves
There are a lot of gloves around!
Which can be...

- Gloves w/ fingers
These are pretty casual.
And they can cover for short periods of time
The hands and just a bit of the wrist.



- Fingerless gloves








- Lace Gloves





p.s. I loved this one! OMG :o



- Fishnet gloves







- Knitted gloves / armwarmers
You can either buy them already
OR make them yourself.
Depending on your patience, skills and/or money.







- Others...

Make up?
I NEVER personally done this but on some videos
Some people cover their scars
By using foundations or concealers
Around the already scar

To hide/cover it up
I don't think that has a very effective result
Plus it is make up anyways...

Sleeves / Legs ?
You can consider wearing sleeves around the winter/autumn time
Well BEFORE summer and the heat actually starts
Otherwise not only people might find it odd
But you might have some hard times
So it is adviced to wear armwarmers
And such as I pointed out above.

As for the legs it is a troubled story
In case you're a boy in the meantime you can consider
Wearing jeans and few times shorts;

But if you are a girl...
You can either use jeans
Or choose between :

Collants OR leggings...
They are good options too.
As for the leggings there are some that kinda
Imitate jeans and aren't THAT warm
So they are wearable.

At the pool OR beach
You can try for a while to wear a *pareo.

Music XIX

Music XVIII

I loved this one from Red.
Thank you Key, for the song's name. Hvj

Music XVII

Note : They are Christian bands. :)

Befriending Someone

I decided to write this post for whoever needs it.
Anytime it can happen.
Imagine, for instance, you either :

a) Aren't much social

b) Just feel like meeting new people

c) Are *scared or shy about making (new) friends;

Note : If you did developted or had a previous
(or even have had a sequence of) bad experiences
The person is likely to be less social and
Shy towards others. I have my point of view...
And afterwards my opinion/sugestions on the matter.

Point of View :
On school I was much considered what people can call
An *outcast or a loner ;
Specially at highschool due to bullying
I started to isolate. I am confortable to speak about it now
Nearly openly to others as it is over already.

One of my great friendships started because I was reading
A book! (rather boring I must add)
And she went and talked with me.
We know eachother for like
5 maybe almost 6 years now.

[...] People often did left me behind
Or labeled me. It is how it works mostly on high school
Even middle school. I know there is cruelty
There are events that can hurt or scar
But I know too that YOU ARE STRONGER than any of that
So, put that head up and high.

As for the rest of the point of view
I then made it through;
I started talking with people
Even from small to casual/simple things
You don't have to think too much
To start a conversation.

-----

My opinion and sugestions...
I will search and post some links :
A group on facebook called Friends to Friends Hotline:
+ http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=249833533215

Check this out too if you want :
+ http://www.friendshipgroup.net/
I will search for more stuff when I do have the time.

+ http://www.friendsandfamilyforum.com/

In the meantime my sugestions
Are to :

* Mostly search out through forums
(Chatrooms NO because some of them
Aren't trustworthy)

* Random maybe forums where you
...Do have some knowledge on
Like politics, gaming, health, artworks
Or even support forums.

* Social groups or joining a sport/activity you enjoy
For that inform yourself in school
We have SPO in here
(Serviço de Psicologia e Orientação
Translation - Orientation & Psychology Service)

* Social networks and websites like :
Facebook, Myspace, Twitter,
Hi5, Hyves, Myyearbook,
Youtube, Blogger, ect.

* Going out to events, parties
(In a moderate non-dangerous way)
Concerts, amusement parks,
Church, sport associations
A book or game that was released
Even Cosplays!

* If it becomes too much
As a fear or fobia
Try to speak to your local/regular psychologist.
It can be a start already.

Searching and reaching for help
Isn't something to be embarassed or scared of.
Focus on yourself and needs above all.
Do not forget studies in any case as well.

Something else .
It can all start with a conversation.
Believe it. Don't lose hope.
The maintaining a(-) conversation(s)
Will be going on other post
On the *Social Secction in this blog.

I can search and advice
Plus maybe post some users
Who can have experience
And/Or have further sugestions on the matter too.
Hope this was helpful and good luck!

Depression : Updates

I decided to give further steps
About my depression
So I'm going to share here.
My psychologist put up the possibility
Of me having PTS (Pos traumatic stress)
Which explains the big worries, anxiety
And memory failures.

Combined with depression
I do not know if I can hold this up for long.
I'm holding on for the day when this ends.
I have dreams...That is what I'm holding onto now.
Like my friend Miguel said : River of dreams.

Having a Admirer

When you hear the word "admirer"
What do you think of it?
Something romantic , right?
Flowers, notes...

My thought :
A *highly* stubborn person seeking for your love
Or something else.
So...by my experience I had a few ones.

1. One in 6th grade a year older than me
Highly annoying. Singing Heidi songs XD :o
Not atractive. He was around me from that time
I rejected him (can't fake feelings so I am honest)
So I knew him and went to school with him.
That until the end of highschool;

2. I was commited and around 11th/12th grade;
The "admirer" was 14 O_O ;
I was chased around for over a year and some months
And even after the break up between me and my ex.
He faked to the point of saying he had lost memory.
He would get in between any person I had feelings for
Or any person I was with.

3. Some weird episode.
This like a year or two ago
I was added by a adress called "oteuadmiradorsilvia"
Gosh. It sounded creepy as he said he used to see me
And watch me around on school breaks.

4. Other. He's 30.
My friend (she calls me best friend,sister and so)
Said "What if he is a pedo??I don't want to lose you!"
Coffee to movies invitations; Denied.

5. Yesterday there was another person for interview
He looked at me and anyways said he liked to meet me
Called my company phone and said he'ld like to know me better
Maybe go out or have a coffee.
"What had to happen would happen".
I said : I'm only into friendships
(And I am faithful to my bf)

* More of a fml... WHY!! *
I have to put one big poster saying
18 and commited.
Maybe they think I'm older or something. :o

My friend justified the rather odd events :
"You're nice, and you have a pretty face and smile
If I was a man you wouldn't escape from me too *x'D*
[...] the only thing keeping you from thinking that
about yourself are your depression crisis"

Conclusion : I have really bad luck!
And ironically when I'm taken it is when this happens XD.